1.29.2009

my life as of now:

  • i live in pittsburgh, pa, with two of my favorite people.
  • i sleep with two orange cats, one real, one not. ones name is samson, the other is king louie. you can decide which is which.
  • my job is to play with animal blood all day.
  • i am slowly becoming a steelers fan, but will always love the patriots.
  • i miss my family.
  • my boyfriend is unbeatable. no, really.
  • i wish this journal was filled with deeper thoughts and updated more often.
  • i wrote my own version of a "bucket list" when i was a sophomore in college. so far i've knocked 8 things off the list, including, but not limited to, eating an entire meal with no hands.
  • i am really really good at guitar hero.
  • i never get sick. like...ever.
  • TLC is my addiction.
  • i can't wait to live in the same state as my boyfriend.
  • i am twenty-three years old. in one way, i feel so old, in others i feel so young.
  • moving to a state without a guaranteed jobs takes guts. and also a backup plan. or two.
  • i crave the enjoyment of christian friends and a church family i feel at home with. it is elusive but waiting to be found.
  • i miss the friendship i used to have with two of my closest male friends, and am slowly accepting the fact they won't ever be that way again...girls aren't supposed to be best friends with guys, right? growing up kinda sucks that way.
  • i long to have a deeper relationship with Christ but find i lack the willpower, time, energy, etc. to really persue it. i feel stuck in the place i am in...i want that relationship, but find it slips so easily from my mind all the time. i put everything else in front, and just plain forget about God. it hurts my heart knowing that God wants me to come to him in everything, yet i don't.
  • my goal this year is to find something i am passionate about and pursue it with everything i can.

until next time, hopefully sooner rather than later.

(i tend to forget i even have this journal!:/)