I realized the other day that I rarely use this journal as an actual journal; by this I mean that the emotions and thoughts that one typically finds in someone's journal are rarely expressed here. I'm not quite sure if this is because of the somewhat intrusive thought that there are people out there I barely know who are reading this (or at least have the potential to be reading this if they are so interested), or the more simple and probably more correct explanation that I don't have the time or mental fortitude to think about my own life and/or problems due to the fact that I am a senior in college and have more important things to worry about. This been said, occasionally I might lapse into a fit of self-examination but most likely it will be fairly rare, and the rest of the time this journal will be filled with the boring details of everyday life.

Do you ever wonder if there is anyone out there who has the potential to know you, the real you who is rarely seen or heard from, but whom you wish would appear more often? I often wonder what I'm missing when I look at other people, and also what people are missing when they look at me. I pray someday that someone will know the real me, every single part of me, and love me because of it and in spite of it. And I pray that someday I can know and love someone the same way.

Sarah and Tami came this past weekend to visit and watch me play frisbee, since Sarah can't come for our home tournament. We had an amazing time. I think the last time I saw her was the end of July, and before that was Easter. And the last time I saw Tami was sophomore year of high school, at Sarah's high school graduation. Being with them was a welcome break from the pressures of school and life and I was able to be myself in a place that rarely sees the real me. It was a weekend full of laughter, memories, and jokes that are only shared between sisters. It wasn't the most exciting of weekends activity wise, but still one of the best I've had in a long time. Sarah had only been to visit me once before with my parents, and this was the first time she had been by herself, so it kinda made me feel special. She finally got to meet a lot of my friends and get to know some of the people I talk about, which I'm glad about.

Still undecided about what to do for October break. I guess I have three options now. Or four. My mom would love for me to come home, and it would be great to be there, but I've gone home for almost every break and I feel like this is my last year to get out and go places I might not get a chance to again. I do want to see Leo, though, and see how much he has grown. I also would like to go visit Marples in Ontario, but the problem with that is that I read online that starting in October is when you need a passport to get back from Canada. Mine expired last year and I've applied for a new one, but that doesn't help me much now. I could also go to Ohio and visit Sarah and see her new apartment, because I have yet to see it and she's been there a while now. I don't know if I feel like driving that far by myself, though. Staying at Houghton is also an option, though I feel like that would be relaxing and yet very very boring, like Houghton on a weekend except no one is here and like 457 times worse. Who knows. If anyone has any suggestions or opinions on what I should do, please let me know or just decide for me.

Hot caramel apple cider is fantastic. So is cherry vanilla yogurt, chocolate chip cheesecake, Sarah Bareilles, "Over You" by Daughtry, and summer weather.
Rain, shirts that shrink in the dryer, being too far away from the Cheesecake Factory, not being able to sleep in any weekends because of tournaments, and making powerpoints are not fantastic.

smile :)