so i realize it's been a while, but it always is between posts so i guess that's nothing new. i am a recently graduated woman who is currently searching for her dream job and yet trying to enjoy the uncertainties of life at the same time.

during the several months of hiatus from this journal, i have encountered the death of a best friend, the heartbreak that comes with the loss of love, the stress, uncertainty and feeling of success that comes with graduating from college, and especially the joy and happiness that is found when you begin a relationship with someone that feels as if they were what you had been waiting for. i have known and trusted friends that i have learned shouldn't be trusted, and i have known and trusted friends that i have learned will always be there for you. i have learned that sisters are the best friends you can have and will always receive you with open arms when you drive like crazy and arrive at 3 am, just for a few precious hours with someone that truly understands heartbreak. i've learned that a relationship can be one-sided, and that only makes me realize the blessing of being in a relationship with a wonderful man who cares about me more than i will ever realize. i've learned that life isn't fair, that things you expect to always be there won't be, that death can and will claim everything that you love at one point or another. i have also learned the happiness that comes with the release of bitterness, the relief felt when all jealousy, hatred, distrustfulness, uncertainty, and regret are burned out of your life, never to be an overwhelming presence in your life again. i have learned that college friends are the best there are, and there is never another chance to make friendships like that again. i have learned a lot.

i'm on vacation in sunny Florida with my entire family, including Ben and Austin. i'm so excited to be spending a week with the love of my life, relaxing and just soaking up the sun and love and each other.
til next time.
:)